I originally developed the Earth Jakked Technique (EJT) to heal myself. My name is Matt, and I live in Ireland. For most of my life I’d existed in an anxious, and self doubting bubble. Despite my self-help efforts over the years, I couldn’t make headway and I was exhausted. Work-related pressure eventually achieved critical mass, and I was forced to do something completely different.
I’m what’s known as a ‘called shaman’ (or more succinctly, a miserable bastard) but you’ll struggle to find a full description of it anywhere because it challenges cultural narratives. It’s not a title I gave myself, but it’s technically correct and I’m comfortable with it. I received it from other called shaman… themselves being self-appointed, but hey, that’s how most systems work once you peer beneath the surface. Still, several of them were worthy of deep respect. The problem with being a called shaman is that by its very nature, lineage isn’t a thing, plus there’s all of the cultural appropriation stuff. It’s a knotty credibility problem, and the equally self-appointed shaman-police aren’t happy about it, largely because we’re outside of their Blue Peter badge shake-down fold. If there was a better common-language term, I’d use it. I was once told by spirit, that I’m a ‘herald’. Make of that what you will, but hold the glitter.
The revelation of what-I-am was akin to scratching a four and a half decade old itch. During those years, I’d suffered bouts of spiritual attack, soul and memory loss, depression, delusion and intense paranoia. I was way ahead of the curve into (now trendy) circular conspiracy theories and pretty much everything else batshit. Above all things though, I was angry. Most people knew I was twitchy, but had no concept of what I was fighting (and badly losing to) in my private life. I’ve only begun to comprehend this retrospectively; at the time it was my ‘normal’, and for most of that I’d no grasp of what was being done to me.
The spiritual attacks started from my earliest memories, reaching fever-pitch by my mid forties. A few years prior to self-realisation, I’d almost succumbed to possession, such was the desecrated and fragmented mess my soul was in. Sleeping was often a terrifying and humiliating experience. The transition between semi-lucidity and sleep was the worst time. Sometimes I’d gain awareness within sleep, and witness what was being done. I can assure you, it was far beyond nightmares. It was on one of those nights, whilst camping on a mountain in India, that my hair turned grey. Emotional trauma and programming is an incredibly powerful tool in dream; it’s not something you can detach from, isolate or switch off. It’s essentially what hell is, if you’ve ever wondered. Only the soul’s mettle can survive it, not the fighting words of a waking mind.
This is the way of the called shaman: the spiritual hammer must meet the anvil of circumstance for the work to be beaten and shaped. Until the work is shaped, it will struggle and resist. Only when withdrawn from the forge can the work self-comprehend. It matters not who wields the hammer, and if swung for good or ill once it’s artfully nudged to smash the right parts. If I could describe the gods in one word, it would be this: efficient. My spiritual keelhauling was borne neither from malice nor accident. Instead, it was the product of two necessities: one being to shape my mind for a mantle; the other being the unavoidable consequence of gross karma. The latter being something I’d become most overdrawn with from lifetimes other than now. Otherworld debtors had called in for their contractual pound, drooling all kneecaps and knuckledusters.
Earth Jakked is a product of intuition, trial and error. I experimented on myself for a period of about two years to perfect and simplify the process (for the avoidance of doubt, I’m not a qualified psychotherapist.) The impact it made was profound. Once I got the process right, I overcame my core anxiety and experienced a peace I didn’t know was waiting for me. I’m not perfect, but I can better handle what I couldn’t before. My chakras had been shattered by events, and my crown and third-eye eviscerated. There’s no quick fix when it comes to clearing the way for rebirth. Tending to the seed however, is everything.
I appreciate religious wisdom, yet I am forever the heretic, both in this and other lives. But I’m a Good heretic, at least this time of asking. Through my shamanic work, I have an inseparable relationship with Asura. During my darkest time in my late forties, I was minutes, hours or perhaps a night away from losing the fight for my life. My soul had been under relentless attack and I was barely in control of my thoughts, words and actions. I was truly terrified, and beseeched a roster of gods I didn’t believe in to help me. Ironically, the one I’d neither heard of nor name ever spoken, is the one that answered. She intervened and saved my soul by simply speaking the word ‘enough’. And it was so, and everything instantly changed. So I love Her dearly, that She’d invest so much effort in such poorness.
Despite that apparent serendipity, my life has been deftly strewn with carefully laid, and sometimes fiendishly clever Asuran Easter eggs. They span from my date of birth, to words said, dreams had, and colliding synchronicities resolving across multiple decades. Asura’s intervention was always likely, because not only am I a called shaman, I’m Her called shaman, and She went large to recover the alchemical remains of what had always been Good. And for all of that, I am grateful.
Free software and freely shared information has made this possible, for which I am grateful.
Rob Williams’ Psych-K gave me some early pointers when I was researching Applied Kinesiology. There are plenty of other self-programming systems, but in my opinion of the one’s I’ve seen there’s a lot of woods-for-the-trees. Of course, I would say that! I note however that there’s no financial circus surrounding EJT.
Manjaro Linux. This is a versatile and free operating system that you really should consider using (or similar.) I recommend the KDE/Plasma desktop. Primary tools used for delivery include, amongst others:
- Visual: Inkscape, The GIMP & Kdenlive
- Aural: Rosegarden, Yoshimi & Audacity
- Spatial: WordPress & Firefox
And finally… To all the former friends and companions I’ve hurt and disconnected from along the way towards finding myself, I am so sorry. And to those that reconnected and then ran to the hills, well, that’s on you.