Dharamshala Night Fever

How to break a fever with your mind

This is an 1100 word piece, around 4 minutes reading. August 2021.

1 I’ve an original saying from decades ago, which is more of a “don’t forget, silly!” rather than some mantelpiece grade of poetic inspiration, and it’s this:

What touches me, I touch also.

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It’s proven helpful over the years because it shifted my victim mentality and strapped on kicking boots when required. Fundamentally, it changes your stance in life. Knowing this, constitutes the first step towards breaking a fever.

Walking a way
The Taoist walking a way, up the mountain, on a conveyor of petals.

2 I met a nice Taoist whilst rambling in India and we hiked together from Dharam­shala to Triund, and then back to Bhagsu. He told me disease was just con­scious­ness needing to be recognised, and could be released with love and a blessing instead of being bludgeoned into submission. I didn’t fully understand him at the time, but I recognised the profundity of what he’d shared. Like all things I don’t understand, credit or can confirm, I allow them to walk with me until better triangulation can be had.

That doesn’t mean I believe in any old horseshit, but if I find that horseshit functional later on, I’ll reconsider. Self-identifying with one’s beliefs is both normal and a terrible idea, because we’re not that supremely conscious to know enough about anything much. With a firm grounding, it’s possible to bend in the wind. It completely freaks the rest of the folks who live in rigid snapshot realities.

Knowing that disease is a two-way street and one solution is through ack­nowledge­ment and release, constitutes the second step. In other words, disease shouldn’t be looked at confrontationally (per regular thinking.) If not already familiar, a little studying of the philosophy that’s AikidoExternal hyperlink will change your perceptions.

3 When I was in my early twenties, I had a stint in the Royal Naval Reserves. It was an interesting experience, my main takeaway being their lack of professionalism and anal-retentive­ness as a transparent means of compensation. Not that I was in any way suited to the arm, or being around people in general, but that’s neither here nor there. Yet I learned three things, one of which was later refined into a Weapons Grade technique.

Standard fire triangle
The standard fire triangle showing the three parts needed for a reaction. Identify and isolate any one part and you’ve solved the problem.

So what was my time in the RNR good for? Well, I learned that I was really good at middle distance running. I also loved the Part Ones training in Ply­mouth, which I found exhilarating. But before all that, I learned about the fire triangleExternal hyperlink, which taught me fundamental Aikido stuff, although their focus was primarily on using Ajax reels. I know, right? Pretty much everything else about the Navy though was really not required, like their misogyny, racism and mental abuse.

Understanding and applying the fire triangle is key to the process, and constitutes the third step. It does however require a small trans­formation, which is achieved after having grokked the first two steps.

4 By the end of my long stay in Dharamshala I was in a bit of a mess. I’d fallen from a high mountain and was still snowballing. This made me more susceptible to illness and naturally I picked up a fever, because it’s related to the mind. If Achilles had a mind to, he’d put his heel there, and I’d be flag waving.

My head was spinning and reality was all over the place. The fever was a real doozy too. I was hallucinating and my sprinting thoughts were warping and bending into madness. I was burning up, and it slowly dawned on me that I needed help.

Being wrong has always been one of my greatest superpowers, and none more so than back then. I didn’t need help at all, I just needed Good application. My mind was ragingly over-active and by harnessing that force I experienced a turbo-charged flash of absolute clarity. It was one of life’s MentatExternal hyperlink moments and I knew what to do, how to do it and why it would work. Having ‘something special,’ as the Buddhists term it, constitutes the fourth step, but probably isn’t essential if you study the rest of this.

5 I knew from step one that I could touch the fever using the same channels it was using to touch me. From step two I knew I needed to avoid going into direct opposition if I wanted to be efficient and avoid bludgeoning my way out. I knew from the fire triangle in step three that I needed to identify and remove the fever’s fuel source to succeed.

Fever fire triangle
The transformed fire triangle. The specifics aren’t particularly important, it’s just the principle and the application.

In that moment of clarity, I concluded the fuel source was my body/mind, and thought-words were the oxygen; the fever was directly hooked into my mind because of the hallucinations and; if I removed all thoughts and words it would suffocate the fever and neutralise the underlying illness.

Bringing the mind to a point of absolute stillness constitutes the fifth step of the process. Easier said than done however, because it’s the last thing you’d think you can do in that situation.

It took me 30 seconds, I reckon. I had to exert tremendous focus to achieve it. It was analogue to having an arm wrestling match. At that stage in my life, my meditation was strong and I was already in the habit of silencing my mindExternal hyperlink. There’s the potential per the fourth step that to do this at all you need to have ‘something special’. My present view is that it’s a sliding scale and not a binary thing. Binary thinking causes all sorts of problems.

I held that silence with an iron-like grip for another few minutes whilst the fever choked and faded. It was profound. I maintained a good meditation for about half an hour and felt completely refreshed by the end. I literally did not feel any fatigue or aches etc afterwards.

Maybe in the end analysis it was just grand theatre to get me to the right destination. Perhaps there’s this well of spiritual healing to be found within that point of absolute stillness. It’s not a place you can grasp or hold, look for or even describe. My Taoist friend would have known that too… and yet… binary thinking causes all sorts of problems. It’s quite possible both are true, but one’s in the mind and the other’s intangible.

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