This piece is 3400 words, and a 12 to 16 minute read. October 2021.
Like everything on this website, these are my opinions and experiences. My truth may not be yours and that’s perfectly okay. I don’t need or seek to convince anyone of anything much. I don’t claim to be a scholar, even if I sound like one at times. That’s just how I roll.
In esoteric matters, from a human perspective, truth is like one of the many corners of an infinite jigsaw. You think you see it, until a few replacement pieces arrive. Being wrong in this sense isn’t failure, but ignoring the new pieces certainly leads to it. For me, faith is coupled with the intellectual process, and I move forwards knowing I need to backfill. The biggest crime is ring-fencing a corner and declaring it complete.
Defending wrong beliefs isn’t a good look. The simpler the doctrine, the longer it will stand unblemished. For me, that’s why religion has so many problems over time, regardless of the personalities. Hence why I, being non-religious, feel so strongly about the essence of Mazdaism, being Asha and: Good thoughts, Good words and Good actions. This actually has mettle, and ties in further below.
So about this piece. The subconscious mind correlates with the soul (as mentioned elsewhere on this site). Other sources will say it’s precisely the same thing. That’s good enough for most, and I follow suit for simplicity and generalisation, but it’s actually more nuanced than that. Without distinction, other topics can’t be adequately handled.
The following draws upon many threads of understanding. More practically, I should write this as a series because it’s anything but an easy read. That may yet happen, but for now I’m attempting a hole-in-one or else I’ll never write the damned thing. Even more practically, no one is going to read a series, let alone this, so the money shot is go.
Each soul is non-linear and many (more on this later). The subconscious mind, being of the material world, follows physical norms. The soul, being from the non-material realms, follows a different set of norms. They are not, and cannot be 1:1. Yet, we typically consider them to be that (or more plainly, the very same thing). That’s not unreasonable, because we can only detect and relate the material end of this arrangement. However, to better understand how-things-work, that perception must be challenged.
The subconscious mind can be seen as a membrane. On one side, there is the soul, and the other, the body and mind. It’s like a double-sided screen, or more usefully an overlay, that receives emotional and mental-emotional projections from the soul and the body-mind respectively. This arrangement isn’t an accident. Humanity, like the world and creatures about us, is a nuanced ‘image’ of the spirit realms. That’s because everything is part of the same overall system, so it’s going to share fundamentals. Like a sailboat and a jet plane; as disparate as they seem, commonality is easy to find… but only when we dare to look up and believe in jet planes.
The subconscious mind, without said projections is a closed system, a storage facility that throws out stuff on demand. If you consider the soul’s emotional carry-over through lifetimes, then the impact of events must affect the soul. The mind will perish and rot whereas the soul is in perpetuity. Lifetime events imprint the subconscious mind and then the soul, but other lifetimes and certain kinds of ‘higher’ experiences (even within the current lifetime) are based in the soul. That’s another conversation right there, but I need to move along.
The membrane is permeable, in that strong projections from the body and mind, such as thoughts, words, and actions — emotions and trauma — impress upon the soul. Likewise, strong emotions from the soul (and spirit) express upon the body and mind. As discussed elsewhere, the soul is ‘sleeping consciousness’ and thus impressionable. The soul is an emotional force, but I’m using a superior concept of ‘emotion’ than the material-world equivalent. However, we do experience aspects of that force here because we’re engineered for it.
The reason why I say ‘superior’ is because it’s literally what most people consider to be ‘the spirit realms’ which being non-material, is an emotional construct. Confusion exists using the word ‘emotion’ because it’s not defined to encompass such things, thus falls short. Still, it’s the best word I presently have to describe it. Throw in the synonym of ‘manifestation’ too, if it helps.
The soul is many, which goes hand-in-hand with the emotional reality the soul’s part of. It’s as clear-as-day like saying a person in the material world is singular, because of course, they can’t be anything else. Yet the many is also one; there’s no separation per se, whereas in the material world it’s implied. Imagine a computer processor with multiple cores. They are many and yet one. It’s a useful analogy, but don’t lose sight that the soul remains structureless, unlike the topography of a CPU.
The soul can be described in terms of water in a jug. It has the flavour – at least a dash – of wine, and can be poured into countless cups. You can pour it back and its still the same soul. In our material view, we see the water as having been separated, yet in the emotional realms that’s not so (though later I will nuance this). Each ‘individual’ cup of water has its own experience and apparent independence. Those cups might change flavour from their experiences, which blends with the taste of the whole (because they’re fundamentally not separate). Mentally, we assign uniqueness to each cup, but this isn’t really so. We don’t consider our fingers to be independent beings, yet each has a different story to tell. If one feels pain, all feel pain, yet only one is having the direct experience.
Each cup is what we think of as being the soul, yet there are many such cups, and all derive from the parent jug, being the root of the soul. Thus my immediate soul would be a cup poured from a jug. There are many other souls deriving from that same jug, having their own unique experiences. These souls typically share the same, or similar, flavour. Your soul will be from a different jug than mine. This leads to a confusion of the word ‘soul’ because there are levels to it. I follow convention by referring to the soul in the immediate ‘cup’ sense. When I mean the root of the soul, the jug, I’m explicit. With the fingers analogy, each finger equates to a cup, and the palm, indeed the whole hand, is the jug. Thus despite my quantification, the fingers remain the hand and vice-versa.
Continuing with the analogy, fingers are non-linear. That is: they’re not stacked on top of each other end-to-end, rather they exist in parallel. Linear fingers would be pretty useless as fingers, though they might make a very good tail. Anyway, the soul is the many within the one, both in terms of the countless ever-moving droplets of water in a jug, the many cups poured from and into the jug, and in terms of a multitude of parallel fingers having unique experiences. If you can bring these concepts together, that’s a pretty good start on the soul.
To complicate matters, from the material perspective, cups seemingly replicate across time. I’ll go into why in the next section. Emotion isn’t limited by form, so notions of structure and content is somewhat murky. Thus the typical mental go-to is to think replication means separation… but no, it isn’t that and the cup remains as-is. Returning to the projection concept, the soul parallel-projects and impresses across time and space. It looks many, but really it’s just many-within-one. It’s natural, like breathing (though both in and out breaths happen together). At the human level, it could well be Suzuki’s swinging door. From my cruder shamanic viewpoint, it’s exactly this, but Zen masters get the deciding vote.
Meanwhile, the pocket of sleeping consciousness that’s the soul/cup is somewhat ‘distanced’ from the root in order to bridge to the material world. It can lead into feeling isolated, lonely and abandoned. Some people rail against their God because of this. Imagine a diving bell (a form of cup) being lowered from a parent exploration ship, with all the constraints therein. Now imagine waking up inside that bell and knowing nothing of the parent above, or even what a diving bell is. Again, consider the diving bell having countless variation, each doing something unique, yet figuratively all in the same place. Yeah.
Everything we think and say, every emotion we’ve ever had and will have, is in parallel to everything else we’ve ever done and have yet to do. Yet what that is exactly, remains to be seen.Earth Jakked
The Event Tree
The non-material realms aren’t subject to time, but rather have events, which I can best describe as being perpendicular to time. In other words, if time flows from behind to ahead, then events happen left and right. It’s a curious (shamanic) experience to feel both the flow of time and events together. It’s like being in a curved elevator: as you go ‘down’ you curve and bottom-out into heavy, grabbing, linear time. As you go up, you spread into the breadth of event, which is an indescribably peaceful and free place, because the moment of the physical is so tenuous there.
Consciousness progressively collapses in linear space, and thus the experience will self-conclude into a dream state. This equates with the diving bell analogy, in that the deeper you go, the less self-aware you are. It’s why I say the cup of the soul is distanced from the root jug, and can feel abandoned in human guise. This connects back to the beginning where I mentioned certain higher experiences can’t be recalled; well, it’s a progressive degradation of memory, precisely related to the depth of relative consciousness.
It gets deeper and more complex. Given the soul is experiencing time as a parallel and ongoing (dynamic) moment, then what about the linear perspective right here, right now? Surely everything’s set in stone at this stage? Well, yes and no, because time is only settled for the timeline we’re on. There are countless other timelines. I personally exist in most other timelines, as do you. My soul does not project to all of my other parallel lives; other souls are having that experience, and their experience is unique and will be different from my own, even radically so. The commonality across timelines is the material world itself, and not something at the soul level. It’s the soul which carries the ongoing personality and karma. You could meet a parallel self and wider family, and potentially not recognise personalities beyond genetic constraints and predilections, though even those have variance.
This touches on why the soul incarnates, at what level, and how it ‘chooses’ a host or hosts. Souls do not have to incarnate into a single vehicle, but it depends upon mutual sophistication. Humans are sophisticated in this context, and it’s a 1:1 thing. This begs a question regarding the countless projections across timelines. It’s related to events and not time. I’ll leave this matter for now because I’m not clear on it. It leads into a subject regarding the Golden Mean, and the interrelationship of matter. As individual as timelines are, everything is still touching everything else, both past and future. With enough sophistication, one could look into the palm of their hand and map a lifetime. Alternatively, to the lay of the land and map civilisation.
History is only relevant to the timeline we’re on. It continuously branches into other timelines, though fixed at the point of divergence. The detail is beyond human comprehension, and you don’t have to believe it at all. It explains the commonly held notion amongst spiritual types that we can heal our past lives in real time. That’s a thing because we’re actually having those experiences right now at the soul level. The difference with what I’m stating here is that by positively resolving past-life issues, we do not affect our own timeline’s past. We create new, healthier timelines instead, because it’s an event at the soul level. Each timeline relates to an event.
Time occurs in parallel from the non-material perspective, being somewhat like the classic computer game-of-life. In that game, event-chains form new systems, old chains die off, and others achieve a form of stasis. This ties back into the mention of the Golden Mean, and how all of these realities affect one another, albeit in differing ways. It ties into astrology, in terms of geometric timing and influence upon personal and worldly events… it’s a cosmic waltz. Now consider that humanity, in all its multitude, isn’t the only dancehall in town… across the vastness of the universe…
From the material perspective, trying to assess timelines is pointless. It’s vast, truly vast and boggling, thus not relatable to the material mind, like the number of stars in the universe. The better question is if such things are improbable to the soul (and spirit). Granted, you have to accept the notion of the spirit and soul, but if you do, and attempt that perspective, things become easier to wrangle. If that doesn’t grab you, then what I’m talking about is a tesseract-like reality with emotion being the innermost (and over-arching) dimension. Taking all of this as an emotional, ‘organically’ evolving experience rather than a quantifiable mental rationalisation is a better approach, even though certain schools of thought won’t go there. When water flows over fingers, we don’t decry it because we can’t itemise and agree on the molecules, their atoms and all the movement therein. Instead we experience the sensation because that’s perfectly normal to us, isn’t it? And so with the non-linear soul.
A Cup of Karma
The soul is emotional and can be imprinted upon by physical thoughts, words and actions. Consider this is happening right now from the soul’s viewpoint, even if it’s in the physical past (and indeed, future). That imprint relates to the soul’s overall consciousness. Negative experience sours the soul’s flavour and needs to be released. The flavour actually derives from the wine of the spirit (“spirit is the wine that fills the cup”). It’s thus important to maintain that flavour, else bad things happen further down the line. More on that later. Meanwhile, the whole agenda is to turn water into wine, and away with the vinegar. It’s an alchemical process, perhaps almost operatic, and cast across many lifetimes.
The vinegar I allude to is the basis of what many know to be karma, in that reverting a trauma or trait requires suitable corrective action, often in terms of mirroring. Incarnation itself is a broader form of self-reflection and release for the soul. Karma is living consciousness and not some administrative note in a divine filing system.
Karma is not tied to people, it’s actually part of the extended soul. The soul is non-linear, and from the material perspective is spread out across time and space. Those traumas? They’re not memories, they’re living in the now. When the trauma is bad, the jolted cup spills into a new, smaller cup, which is reluctant to pour back. Indeed, this new cup might figuratively ‘go into hiding.’ Given enough smaller cups, they pool or combine, because it’s their underlying nature. The key is they combine through their similarity (to vinegar). This is what’s termed as the ‘shadow self’, though my definition is likely unusual.
This new combined cup holds the anti-flavour. It’s usually frightened of the main cup. Rejection, abandonment and so forth spoils the water, for it loses the taste of wine (though the wine never truly leaves, and becomes vinegar). Think in terms of small children (who aren’t fully conscious) and their simplistic behaviours. That’s where the unaided soul is at, pretty much. It’s never profitable to chase children away and deny them, better to be accepting, tolerant and embracing, which is at the core of soul integration therapy. Otherwise, they’ll sneak back when you least expect it and cause mayhem. Just look at the state of the world if you need an example of how that works out. We live in a timeline of the rampant shadow self, which is why it’s so inequitable and self-destructive. Earth Jakked is a product of its timeline.
When not wholly contained within the sovereign self, karma is a negative entanglement of energies with other entities. That’s why forgiveness is so important. However, the other party retains their karmic load, but you are no longer entangled with them. This is good to know, because it doesn’t mean they get away scot-free, though subject to their core nature. It ties into the deeper spiritual concepts of judgement and having faith. That is, let God do the judging. Well… it’s actually the soul’s self-judgement, or more like a reaction, such as pulling your hand away from a flame.
There’s no OCD divine administrator deciding what’s good and what isn’t. Thus, evil, to use a word, doesn’t get struck down by holy lightning for being evil, and that’s because it’s normal for it to be bad, relative to its spirit. That is, a jar of vinegar has no time for wine. Any figurative lightning would have to come from itself, or another entity chasing it down for kicks. Otherwise we have the wild situations where (the religious concept of) God tolerates evil; God is ineffective against evil; or all evil has been annihilated. Good enough reason to become atheist then, because it clearly doesn’t hold up.
What touches us, we touch also. Stumbling at forgiveness raises a question of self-identity. Thus, touching toxicity has a reciprocal and harmful ongoing effect to ourselves, unless that’s what we jive from. That’s the decision we have to make. This also applies internally with the soul, in terms of off-tasting cups and the vinegary shadow self. Developing further, there are karmic ties going well beyond our current lifetime. Consider therefore lots of tiny cups — thimbles, if you will — spread across time and space, conjoined and entangled with the thimbles and cups of other entities. None of these can be poured back into the main cup until disentangled. This touches upon the spiritual practise of severing of ties.
Karma is a big deal then. The entangled thimbles can lead to soul disintegration. If the entanglement is with an entity that prefers vinegar to wine, then that thimble is at risk of being consumed. Recall that karma relates to a form of self-rejection, however innocent; thus rejecting thimbles is not a good way to hold on to them. Those who cannot love themselves run the risk of losing everything, subject to their interactions. If we fail to act, indeed if we begin to fundamentally identify with all of these wrong actions, bad things happen. With any luck, the spirit is able to intervene, but timing could depend upon the agenda, which is another conversation. Basically, ‘heaven’ isn’t all fluffy bunnies and when you begin to see the unity of all things, above and below become disturbingly consonant. In short: be your best self.
To conclude, and given that I’ve just touched upon a massive subject, having entanglements can lead to soul destruction and possession. If those entanglements are with bad entities (vs regular souls you’ve just pissed off in passing) and aren’t dealt with, those entities have a route-one into your soul. It’s why you literally never make a deal with the ‘devil’ in whatever form that takes; it encroaches upon your soul across all of time. How far those entities get is down to how strong and cohesive you are, what you believe in and if you’re actually doing shit about it all. That’s why some spiritual teachers, having never experienced such things, simply don’t get it, don’t talk about it and thus have the space to excel at other things instead.
With myself, I’m more herald than teacher. Having been rightfully keelhauled by my spirit for sourness, I have a few words to share on the matter.
I’ll leave you with this, which is the main takeaway, if nothing else:
We don’t need to savour those other lifetimes; decanting one is enough, because everything pours into everything else.Earth Jakked